Check out this beaut! I absolutely love my pink Christmas Tree. For some reason this year I felt like decorating. And, I even got some pink LED lights! This is out of character for me because I usually do not decorate at all - ask my mom as she always gets on my case about this. This year was a different story. Not pictured are my presents, some sparkly garland, a stocking and a table runner! This is a big deal for me.
I found some Christmas joy this year, for sure! I guess I found the joy because I realize I have a lot to be grateful for. Even though we had some heartache (losing Chance and Pepper) and disappointment over jobs and other things that have been frustrating (my accident; dad's stolen golf clubs) we still have each other! That is a big deal. Sometimes I get so caught up in having things go my way, I think God has a crazy way of getting my attention. Not that I'm saying He caused any of these terrible things to happen, but He did (or will) work them for good. I must believe there is a bigger picture. If I didn't believe this, what hope would there be? Even if God keeps us waiting for a long time to reveal his bigger picture, we have to believe there is a picture. After all, we do walk by faith and not by sight.
I had an epiphanous moment as I was writing this blog. As my mind was wondering to my sister and thinking about the pain she has endured over the last month, I started thinking about Chance, again. I know I have brought this up a few times in my blog, but it hit me square in the melon. I believe God speaks to me this way. When I hit and killed that small dog this past April, maybe somehow God was preparing me to comfort my sister when someone else hit and killed her own dog. Maybe He was using this bad, terrible, horrible thing to help me help my Kiki. If anything, I am forced to realize how precious everything is that I have.. Everything is a gift from God. Everything is precious. We are not promised anything, not even the very breath that we breathe. And if God takes away my breath (or from someone I love), I will be grateful that I have loved and loved and loved with all my breath and with all that is within me. And thinking about this gives me joy and peace this holiday season. So, I can be grateful for the little things -even a little thing like my pink Christmas tree. And also for my beautiful Luna Belle!
