working on the house

Micah and I have been working so hard on our house. I never imagined how difficult it would be..not so much the hard work, but my attitude in general about the location of it. ..

I've never considered moving out into the country, but since I married a man who loves being away from the city.. here I am. I'm in this world where sometimes I don't feel like I belong. Ever since I was little, I screamed bloody murder at the sight of bugs.. and at 32, I must admit it hasn't changed. This is just who I am. I can't change that just because I have a husband now. So, this has been my dilemma.. How does a city girl at heart be a country gal? God did not make me to be ok with nasty little insects..! I dream in puppies and rainbows and butterflies - not scorpians and spiders and hornets!

Here are some photos of this new life I'm embarking on

The Spiritual World

Micah and I had a great discussion about the spiritual world versus the physical world a couple of nights ago. We spoke about whether or not we are living in a spiritual world or a physical world. An old Sunday school teacher once said, "The spiritual world is the real world."

What does that mean "the real world?" I guess that would imply the real world is something we cannot see because we cannot see the spiritual world.

The bible verse we pondered aloud was this: "By faith we understand that the worlds were prepared by the word of God, so that what is seen was not made out of things which are visible." Heb 11:3. New American Standard Version.

For some reason I have to read this verson a dozen times or more to comprehend it. So if God created this world by His Word, something intangible, to create the physical world..does that mean that all things were there but we couldn't see them until He made it so?

This second translation is a little more clear.

By faith we understand that the world was framed by the word of God; that from invisible things visible things might be made.

Does this give us proof that the real world is spiritual then? Moreover, what is unseen is just as real as what is seen and it is in fact more real because it was there all along? (until God breathed life into what was unseen to make it seen)

I start pondering all that is around me that I can't see. What does it look like and why can't I see it? I imagine the unseen like it's a magical world I cannot touch. What do the angels look like? What do all the demons look like (that's a scary thought) Or is it? Are they just ordinary people who made ordinary mistakes? What is it that makes them demonic?

Lord, these are just one of the many questions I have for you when I see you face to face? Why is it there is so much I don't know.. and why is it that the more I learn the less I know?

I remember watching one of the Chronicles of Naria movies and I think it was Aslan who said, "Seeing is Believing."

Here is exerpt of a blogger who I follow:

Mark Batterson, in his book Primal, writes about a fascinating study that was done a few years ago. It involved a group of Mexican people who had never been to America and a group of Americans who had never been to Mexico. The researchers gave both groups basically a ViewFinder, it was a machine they could look through that had two different images.

One image was a Mexican Bull-Fighter, it was directed at the right eye. And the other image was an American Baseball game, it was directed at the left eye. And the results were fascinating.

Because both images were shown at the same time the test subjects had to focus in on one or the other. They couldn’t focus on both simultaneously. And the Americans saw the Baseball game, the Mexicans saw the Bullfighter.

They saw what they wanted to see.

Actually, I think you could argue that they saw what they had been preconditioned for, or had categories to see.


This is interesting food for thought!!

New Job

Last month I started my new job. I'm working for a small business called The Taurean Corp. The founder's sign is a Taurus so that is why it's aptly called Taurean. I met him through a colleague at Booz Allen. For some reason I felt the need to keep in touch with him when he left Booz. It's amazing the people that God places in your path.


Like a conductor, He beautifully orchestrates the pieces in a harmonious sequence.If I hadn't stayed at Booz as long as I did, I wouldn't have met Micah. Nor would I have met Trey who later introduced me to the owner of the Taurean Corp, Jeff. I am incredibly blessed. On a daily basis I have to remind myself of this and of all the blessings God has given me.


This is a photo of me at my first week at my job. Pretty awesome, huh?!! Nevermind the fact that I look like a total freak! The first week I got to go to a team building event at this beautiful place called the Purple Sage ranch in Bandera. It's an annual event that the company has, and I just so happened to start at the same time as the event. So, I got to meet my new colleagues in a fun and casual way. This is me jumping off a pole to grab a target. It was scary, but it was a huge adrenaline rush. I'm glad I did it.


The other photos are of the week at the ranch. One day out of the week we visited a place called Meadowland, a home for boys and girls who have suffered physical or emotional abuse. Taurean does a lot of volunteer work for them. We had a pizza party with them on Wednesday of that week. It was a great experience to meet the kids. There will be many more awesome experiences to come with this bunch.

So much has happened

So much has happened since my last blog. I can't believe it's been almost 6 months! That is just crazy. I have the best intentions of blogging and for some reason I can't sit down in front of the computer to do it. Staring at a computer screen makes me crazy sometimes..can't say why. Nevertheless.. I will try my best to get you up-to-date on what has happened in the last several months. The biggest thing: I got married!! Yes, I had to pinch myself several times because I still can't believe it happened. God answered all my prayers and brought me someone who puts up with me and my hyper, emotional self. Miracles do happen!! The wedding was a beautiful day despite 6 solid days of rain. It rained all day Saturday, but on the wedding day God opened up the heavens and shined his beautiful, glorious illuminating glory down on me. It was a magical day and one that I had been waiting for, for a very long time. It was everything I had ever imagined and more. I could not have made it happen if it were not for my talented aunts and all my other friends and family who pitched in to help decorate the day before. It simply would not have happend and I am so blessed to have such amazing people in my life. Here are some photos of the big day.

Engagement shots

We finally took our engagement photos!! My future sister-in-law took these and they turned out amazing!!
I am so excited to have crossed this off of our list of many to-dos in our wedding planning. I am so crazy about this awesome guy Micah!

We took these at the construction site of the house that we are building. Well, Micah and his dad and brother are building it. I've only picked out the rock; ha!

So without further ado..

Dealing with Disappointment

This topic seems to come up time and time again in my life. I know life has its share of celebrations and disappointments, but what do you do when you are in a season of disappointments? Disappointments are the most humbling and most profound proof of the existance of God's hand in our lives. It makes me realize that nothing is by chance and nothing happens unless God wills it to happen.

I have been praying for a change in my life for a long time now. I've been burned out with my job mainly. I've been applying and sending out this awesome, tailored cover letter that is so creative and fresh. But that has still led me nowhere and I've gotten several of those rejection emails. 

What do you do? I guess you simply KEEP ON GOING and that is all you can do. You pray for strength and guidance and "just keep truckin."